thoughts

the evening that i created this time lapse
was probably one of the worst of my life.

it was like a living hell.
don't know how else to describe it.
there are a lot of stupid things i'm dealing with
... in my personal life that is.

spending this much time alone
in front of the camera,
by myself,
with nothing to do,
but think,
and feel the emptiness,
etc.

... was terrible.

i thought i could handle it easy.
i've done a lot of things for long periods of time.
i kind of pride myself in my ability to endure through
physical pain and hardship.

but this kind of mental and spiritual strain
on my mind and soul ...
is just too much.

i don't really know how else to describe it.
was weird.