disclaimer

sorry the last few posts were kind of weird.
but this last project in general was kind of weird. haha
i tend normally to shy away from projects that deal or come
too close to me and my personal life ...

i'm an odd person.
and i have a lot to run from.
facing myself is not my strong suite.
sa'll for now.

peace.

thoughts

the evening that i created this time lapse
was probably one of the worst of my life.

it was like a living hell.
don't know how else to describe it.
there are a lot of stupid things i'm dealing with
... in my personal life that is.

spending this much time alone
in front of the camera,
by myself,
with nothing to do,
but think,
and feel the emptiness,
etc.

... was terrible.

i thought i could handle it easy.
i've done a lot of things for long periods of time.
i kind of pride myself in my ability to endure through
physical pain and hardship.

but this kind of mental and spiritual strain
on my mind and soul ...
is just too much.

i don't really know how else to describe it.
was weird.

end result

http://vimeo.com/38555357

the final product was not quite what i wanted or expected.
so, all in all, i feel like its a bit lacking.

nevertheless, i'm proud of it.
it conveys what i wanted and i had one hell of an experience
creating it. time lapse is crazy amazing. i love it!

definitely going to do more of it.
just wish i had a bit more time to experiment with it before
i came up with this final piece.

so many great videos!

think i'm falling in love with time lapse hehe:

http://vimeo.com/14352658

http://vimeo.com/11346049

http://www.wired.com/wiredscience/2009/03/tenlapse/

http://mashable.com/2011/04/24/time-lapse-nature/

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/01/01/nature-time-lapses-2011_n_1176740.html

its like magic!!

concept 2

sooo, for this project,
i wanted to do a 24 hour time lapse of me sitting in a single
location.

it also being the season of lent, i thought it would be appropriate
to also maybe fast during that period of time.

in terms of a more personal element, i see this project as not
only a sort of performative piece, but a kind of personal reflective one
--> a time for me to refocus and to spend some time in silence.

though i am not very open to share,
one of my greatest struggles in life is coping with a kind of personal
darkness or depression ...

a piece of me, deep down inside is broken and not at peace.
somehow, i've created an enemy with myself.

its weird, and i can't really explain it ... nor do i really want to.
but this piece can very possibly serve to somehow shed some light on it.

can i spend all this time with myself?

concept

the whole idea for this project stemmed primarily from and or with
a personal fascination of mine with human endurance ... what are we
humans capable of?

in the past, i've had thoughts about doing a 24 hour piece in which i would
carry out a particular activity for 24 straight hours.
examples included:
. walk/jog around san diego
. sit still in a single spot/location
. stay online
. and so on and so forth

a big inspiration of mine to follow this sort of course of action is dean karnazes.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dean_Karnazes
being an endurance runner myself, his personal autobiography fascinated me.

but i digress,
more on the project later